illustrations and words by Nicolas Rix

I’ve been very busy, or at least trying to be very busy sketching lately. Been following Rad Secrest’s how to blog for sometime now. Trying to delve back into drawing properly. This time with some actual knowledge from studying instead of thinking just because I can draw some stuff and compose it nicely – does not translate to knowing everything about drawing.

It’s something I’ve half-heartedly followed since school. School was a time where I really did draw every day. During class after class. On weekends. And if I wasn’t drawing I was thinking about drawing or I was at the comic book store looking for books with my favorite artists in them. I think I’ve lost touch with the “fan-boy” inside of me. He died somewhere along the way.

I had made promises. I had bargained with myself about drawing for a living, because it was something I thought I’d be good at. The only thing was, “But how will I make more money out of drawing monsters and pretty faces… when right now, I can make a lot more consistently doing web design”. Doing what I love and struggle. Or doing something I can do for lots of money. Well a fair amount. Not oodles of cash by any means. It was just accessible at the time – ok.

I sold out. I gave in. So I never studied. I never got better at what I was supposed to do with my life. I’ve past my quarter life crisis. Now I’m just blabbering on my blog about shit I think most people don’t have time in their day to read. I know I wouldn’t.

So anyway, good people of the art world. I am making plans to change my place in the world. Changing my footing. Back to basics. Back to learning all I can and working harder to be what I wanted to be when I was tracing He-man and skeletor art. I loved it then and I still love it now. Everything else has been a distraction.

And so, I shall begin with the ending in mind.